Hot damn my brainmeats just don't want to work these days... I feel like I've lost all creativity and thought and damn nothing seems to just stick anymore. I was smart once - quick-witted and intelligent with a biting sense of sarcasm and vocabulary.
Adulthood and psych medications have made me dull and dim and dumb - slow on the uptake for damn near everything.
I don't know how to communicate anymore. Performance anxiety has me like woah and it's all I can do not to yak on my shoes and run the fuck away when I'm put in the spotlight.
Music speaks to me but I've lost that spark to make it. But listening calms me - I'll keep doing some of that.
Art can be fun but it's tedious and rage-inducing when it doesn't go as planned. How the hell do those painters pull off the intricacies of their minis anyway... voodoo magic and mad skillz that I just don't have the patience for.
I'm tired of an empty head - the quiet distresses me.
